I see why people constantly occupy themselves to avoid thoughts. It’s fear. Fear to admit your mistakes, fear to revisit painful experiences, fear to fall into an abyss of emotions, fear to fail surpassing yourself, fear of the unknown.
It’s been a while & life has taken yet another big turn for me. 2609, supermwonderf now has a different meaning for me. It could still be if I wanted it bad enough, I lost the strength & courage I used to have, it’s just me. I start to soul-search and wonder if I would one day become someone I am now afraid to even think of. We can never rule out possibilities, because change is constant. I dread living in a world of rapid technological advancement, the chase is tiring and meaningless. Woke up today confused as daylight savings sprang me forward. Blister still not healed, scars still not faded, time is inflicting pain on me. Got a ticket home, soon I catch a glimpse of people I love. Staring out the window to see the governor’s house that has a history, a tragic one. Looking forward to Tuesday 01.10. Told myself that I would call dad on his birthday this year, I shouldn’t forget. As abruptly as I start, I end.